So over the course of the last few weeks, I have become a pawn in the game of “flavored water”. The game that includes such luminaries as Gatorade, Propel, Sobe and Vitamin Water.

For some reason I have become addicted to Glaceau’s Vitamin Water Essential (aka Orange). I dig the vitamin  c + calcium, and I enjoy the flavor a lot. The best part about vitamin water so far happens to be the labels though. Crazy talk you say? I beg to differ…check this out:

“ah, orange juice commercials. funny stuff. mom cheerfully prepares some huge breakfast while the rest of her family sleeps. sure, this could happen. but every morning? please. maybe if mom were heavily medicated, in which case, we wouldn’t condone operating a stove or any other electrical appliance.

for those of us who don’t live in an orange juice commercial, there’s still a way to get your morning nutrition. this product has calcium and lots of vitamin c, so you can get your day started right, minus the whole stepford mom thing. ”

That there is good stuff…and it’s GA…

So it’s been quite a long, long time. If I recall correctly, a senior year has come and gone and now a freshman year of college has begun. In fact it may have been Z’s junior year when I last posted with any regularity.

So here I am, as confused as ever. I know you’ve missed my belly aching, soul searching and general curiosity with the meaning of my life. Today I experienced part 1 of a sermon series on disconnectedness. What causes us to be disconnected, and the resulting feelings and emotions that are often experienced when we are disconnected.

I think I’ve been disconnected for most of this year. I’m not sure why, but I feel like I’ve reverted to 2003 or something. I’ve lost what I had found and a good chunk of my passion for life has died.

If the wrong person reads this, she won’t understand what I mean. Let’s just hope she doesn’t read it, shall we? I miss feeling a part of something that was bigger than me. I miss sharing my life with other people. I know having a significant other means I have a unique individual to share my life with. Oddly, there are things I don’t want to share with her or can’t share with her. Maybe this is because I’m still “alone” in my head most of the time. Maybe it’s because I need a place where I can be me without being “Us”.

I don’t really know. I can’t understand why I feel the way I do right now, and I know I’m upsetting other people because I’m unwilling or unable to communicate  with them.

So here’s my reintroduction to you. I’ll spare you who I am. If you’re reading this I guess and hope that you know. If you’re out there, leave me a comment. Hopefully this new upgrade is free of comment spam.

To Robert - Thank you. I’ve missed this and I hope I get back in the swing of things. I’ve been missing the therapy for a long time now.