“I’ve had myself some friends…
I’d like to sail away.
Dance across the mountains on the moon.
Talk of poems and prayers and promises.
Things that we believe in.”
- John Denver
I don’t know why, but the imagery in this song reflects where I am right now. Reflecting on what has been done, what is yet to be. I have seen a lot of sunshine, I’ve slept out in the rain and I’ve spent a night or two all on my own. How sweet it is to love someone, how right it is to care. How long it’s been since yesterday, what about tomorrow? What about our dreams? All the memories we share.
I’m there, right now in so many ways…I would *love* to sail way (it has been a DAY at Initech, let me tell you). And given the option I’d even dance across the mountains on the moon. I’m in a confused, exciting and frustraing place again. Work is simply a thorn in my side at the moment. We simply CAN NOT manage a release. For those looking for a comparison, imagine a release as the release of a movie (say King Kong just because it came to mind).
We’ve shot the footage, we’ve been on location, we’ve added the special effects and edited the movie. Heck, we’ve even screened it to several experts in the field (Ebert gave it a thumbs up). But two days before the theatrical release we’ve decided to change the plot. We want the old claymation ape, and now the movie ends with Kong ruling over NYC.
This all leads to a very frustrated actor, or maybe I’m more along the lines of a cameraman. I don’t really know. I do know we don’t have direction, and there sure as hell isn’t an overriding creative vision.
So I retreat to music, I think about how long it has been since yesterday. I wonder what tomorrow will bring. I cling to the hope of a brighter future and try to find some dream that I believe in, that I can strive for, to give work a purpose. Simply cashing a check is no longer good enough. Perhaps the goal is sailing away…Maybe St. Lucia is calling me again…
